Sick of living this life.

Disgusted that I'm forced to live with this body.
 
Disgusted that I know that one day i will die, without ever have seen myself in a mirror.
 
Without ever have seen a picture of me.
 
I am so fed up and frustrated with every one just saying hey just cheer up everything will be fine and awesome.... no, it won't.
 
I would like having the ability to have some sort of intimate relation to another girl. but that won't happen.
 
I Would like to actually feel the shape of my body, and get the feeling that this, this is me.
 
But its ok not everyone can live happy I guess.